The Dark Side
I can only write poems when I feel intensely happy or when I am very sad or when I am in rage and I can't vent out my anger. Each poem has its own story to tell and and a distinct mel-emotion (as i wish to call it). There might be some that could sound so desperate or shocking. And some can even be incomprehensible --- probable outcomes of similarly incomprehensible feelings. My poems encompass my frustrations, my anger, my dreams, and my fantasies. And maybe through these pieces of me, you may be able to see a little of the "me" that can never be expressed well enough by the "melanie" that you see.
The ABCs of Wanting You
This poem is dedicated to all the assholes in the world. This was created out of anger for an asshole (as expected) who wrecked my friend's life. Y______, believe in girl power !!!
Anything goes
Between the times of me
Calling you, and you,
Doing the things you do.
Each and every day, this
Fire burns and burns, and I
Go falling deeper and deeper into a
Hole of infernal heat.
I was the
Joke that made you laugh. I was the
Key to no one else's door. You
Leave me hanging here like a
Moron whom you called
Nice and sweet coz
Orgasm is such a sugar
Peak like the glucose that I am.
Queer, but I am in
Rage coz
Shitfuck, you only wanted a fuck when you said that my
Tits were tequila-perfect. And as you lick, shoot, and suck,
Underneath these clouds of lust, you feel the
Virgin-tight, pulsating, wet pussy of the
Wasted bum quite unlike the soggy cunts of women in the
X-rated movies that
You've seen a
Zillion times.
The Self
It was a moment of solitude...a poem from the deepest part of me
A throb.
A beat.
Uncertainty...
A sigh.
A breath.
From within...
This feeling
Lingers.
This vision
Soothes.
From the eyes.
Through the soul.
Lifting the spirit
To great heights
Where emptiness rules.
Nothing to see
Nothing to think of
Nothing to feel
But the wholeness
Of me...
Untitled 1
deadly insecurity...ehehehe i am not as pathetic as this poem...really...
Nobody
Looks at me.
I can do anything.
I can stumble.
And fine.
Nobody sees.
I can be at my best,
I can be beautiful,
Still nobody sees
Because you don't.
Ecstacy
...nothing sexual here okay?
Feel the beat
Of a cold, cold heart
Taste the bittersweet love.
Catch a glimpse of a falling star.
Look now.
I'm here lying
In naked bliss,
Feeling you,
Wanting you,
As I gasp for the last breath,
The last sigh,
Before I bid goodbye.
Untitled 2
I was hurt sooooo badly...
My seared flesh
Bled
As a dagger
Pierced
This shrunken heart
Drained out of
Thick water
From you.
Melanie
A soul in solitude.
A frightened child in hiding.
A broken poem unread.
A song unsung.
Evolution
...life and the wonders of it...have you ever thought of the wonders of death?
A sigh is heard
When I can smile no more.
A look speaks
When I can't say a word.
A tear falls
When nobody sees.
A world is reborn
When I am no longer me.
Bookshelves (AdMU Rizal Library)
fear and frustration...dahil siguro sa sobrang lamig ng library...hehhehhe
A place full of you.
My refuge...
"Take solace here"
I say to myself.
Home is where my toes curl.
Home is where my jaws shiver in cold.
Home is where you are.
And in these four corners of Home,
I sit and wait.
And wait and wait and...
Take refuge
Take refuge?
And die in vain?
Untitled 3
cornyyyyyyy grabe...
He
smiles and I shiver
nods and I feel cold
Looks at me
And my heart
Freezes
...loses its beat
And I...
Am no more
I am lost
I am nowhere
For you never looked
You never smiled
You never nodded
And I ceased to be.
Frozen Kiss
You will never understand...never.
Why have you shown me
How to smile again
Only to leave me
With this blank stare
Pasted on my face
As I watch you laugh
At me and this madness.
You have brought me so much
But you have taken more
My pride, my self
If not, my all.
I have been patient
Yet these eyes are open.
And though you blindfolded me
I see everything
I see the truth
I see you
Enthroned
Upon this cold grave
Where you laid me
Not in peace,
Thinking I am nothing
But a frozen kiss.
Cig
Julie, this is for you... life is precious inspite of all the bad things that are all over us...
Life is
Puffing a cig
Sometimes it chokes you.
At times it warms you.
When it turns out perfectly
Like the smooth smoke
Gliding down the throat
Oh that feeling!
But at times
We must learn to let go.
As we do
When we breath out
That warm, white smoke...
And then we puff again...
Red
figure this out...
Yesterday,
I gave you
A promise of love.
And by your hands you held it.
Pure and white
Was my love
For it flowed from my heart
That way.
As it left your hands
A stain remained.
Now in your heart,
It's not the same
Pure and white.
I turned my back in shame
As you looked down
And saw your hands
...RED
Glimpse
Those eyes.
The look.
Freezes.
Those lips.
The smile.
Melts.
About Untold Feelings
A jack in the box
Dying to pop out
From where
You dare not even touch.
I'll Wish
galit ako!!!
I wish for stars
That are way too far.
I wish for heavens
Not meant for me.
I wish for the rainbows
Whose colors match not mine.
But I'll wish
...because nobody owns the stars
...because heavens were not made for you
...because rainbows aren't yours
Believe
--- as i lay me down to sleep...
Dreams
Are there for us to dream about
-they make us happy
-they make us sad
I am a dreamer
And I dream on
Day and night no end.
For as long as the sun shines
Day by day
And the moon beams
Night after night
There's always a thing or two
To dream of.
Sleep and dream,
Wake up and dream.
Nobody can stop you.
Nobody will.
For all of us are dreamers.
In this world.
Dream on as I do.
I am a dreamer.
And this I know
Dreams are dreams.
Dreams will be dreams
Until we believe...